yo Oedipus, this Thebes party is so crunk

I have been going non stop since I woke up this morning. My day started with early morning church. I had to sing right at the beginning, so I couldn't be late. After church I got home, changed my clothes and just when I was about to lay down for a little nap, my cell phone rang. My friend April had an extra ticket to see a hip hop musical version of the Seven of Thebes, a greek tragedy about Oedipus and the curse on his two sons. It was an absolutely fantastic production. The whole show was in rhyming verse and was updated with an urban idiom. There were various styles of R&B, funk, blues and do-wop interwoven throughout the show. Very entertaining and creative.

After the show, April and I met up with her boy Cliff, who I happen to work with, and we ate a little dinner and chilled a bit while we watched a spanish subtitled movie.

Now I am home and organizing my auditions for the next couple of weeks.

Tyler comes home this week and I can't wait to see him! Love you.

So many changes for us this week.

illuminate the lights on your vacancy sign

Every morning the same. I wake up and there is nobody there beside me.

Come home.







Although it's my day off work, I'll still be busy skeepboppin' around the city. I borrowed that word from a friend, I thought it was funny. It's my mass mailing day and I'm determined to catch the attention of a theatre one way or another. I'm so tired of following instructions on 'the process' of auditioning. I don't really think that's how anyone will get noticed. It's all a matter of standing out and being an individual. That's exactly what I plan to do. What could it possibly hurt. They can either say, "this girl is crazy...no, or this girl is crazy...we must have her". I have nothing to lose.

I'm off to Costco, Target and Walmart (my Long Island adventure day) with my friend Minna.

The Horizon is not far away

close enough to touch

Alone again and nobody to vent to

Let me set the scene:

It's 11:00 am, Hard Rock has just opened, the lights are dim and "What a Wonderful World" is playing over the restaurant wide system. My first table sits down to order. I'm pretty excited because it's a party of 8 (auto-grat baby).

Redheaded lady with chop chop bangs and a big fat ass says, "Can you turn the music down. I can't even hear myself think. This is ridiculous."

I stare back at her for a second in disbelief and reply with the first thing that pops in my head, "This isn't the Easy Listening Cafe, I'm sorry, we can't turn the music down."

She rolls her eyes and makes a little "phsss" noise. She contined to give me the stink eye for the entire hour and a half she was eating. I just killed her with kindness and I bet that just pissed her off even more.

This must have been a trend today because when I talked to my co-workers they were having similar problems with all of their tables. However, there was one situation that really put me over the edge today. A nasty bitch with blatent disreguard for humanity. She was just so rude to my friend Angela and completely disrespectful. Poor Angela was trying hard to keep her cool and this lady was pushing every button. The last straw was when the nasty bitch moved her empty beer bottle from the table to the floor right in front of Angela and told her she needed to get rid of it. Angela just ignored her and kept working. Bitchwoman kept stopping Angela to tell her that the bottle was still on the floor. I don't know how Angie could keep from punching her in the face. When everyone had left, this lady stayed behind to pay the bill and told Angela that she didn't do her job because she didn't pick up the bottle off the floor. Poor Angie was in tears as the lady tried to find a manager. I'm so glad that our managers stood behind her and sent the lady away. I still wish that I would have said something about the whole situation. What was she trying to prove, that we are lower life forms and should crawl on the ground and kiss her feet. This just solidifies for me the fact that I MUST make a change in my employment. That kind of attitude happens all to often and I'm so sick of it. Most of us are college graduates or in school right now. We are intelligent, professional and for the majority this is a second job while we pursue other careers.

Okay, it's out. Now I don't have this awful pit in my stomach.

I'm taking it easy again tonight. I'm actually loving the alone time. i admit I am a bit bored and lonely, but it's nice to just be able to think with no interruptions.

With a sly little grin, she hit play

It's been two days now and I seem to be settling into my new age quite nicely. I don't feel all that different; however I am feeling more and more like an adult with every new birthday. I truly never thought that would happen. This was very apparent to me when I decided to go to the mall on my birthday. Maybe not the best idea since it was also a holiday and in Queens there really isn't anything else to do in February but go to the mall. So, Tyler and I trudged our way over along with every middle school student in the area and attempted to shop. It was a brave attempt but I was getting more and more steamed with every shirt a bra pulled right out of my hands. I was ready to punch someone in the face. Tyler was right there with me, his imaginary red alert light flashing uncontrollably, led him to check this lady in Victoria's Secret and almost knock her down. That fat bitch deserved it. She slammed my leg when she tried to open a drawer, stole my bra and stole my sales girl. See you next Tuesday.



The mall was a bust, but the day before was really when we celebrated my birthday. We went to a Broadway show, Avenue Q, which confirmed once again for me that I have to play Kate Monster. HAVE TO! I will find a way. After the show we ate at my favorite little diner, The Cup, and our fabulous chick server with the mohawk was amazing. So, we'll just count that as my birthday.



One more year until twenty ten. I'm so ready.

I do my crosswords in pen

As I stepped out of the subway today I wasn't sure what to feel. I was running late and felt slightly unprepared for my first coaching session with a new voice teacher. However, when I finally reached his apartment on West End Ave I was greeted by his sweet dog, Jen, and immediately put at ease. We went right to work, picked out a couple of new audition songs and worked on the perfect cuts to show off my range and ability. He also had a couple of ideas for me to get involved in some upcoming shows. I will fill in with details when they are confirmed. By my next lesson I will have 30 new songs to choose from and add to my repertoire.



After I left my lesson I felt something that I hadn't felt for quite some time...confidence. When you have it you walk a little taller. You are focused and have purpose in everything you do. There isn't anything or anyone that can get you down. With my new found confidence comes freedom from doubt, a feeling of trust, belief in myself and my abilities and hopefulness that events to come will only reflect that confidence. I will fear no longer that which I cannot control.



"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face" Eleanor Roosevelt.

Deux Ex Machina

What does it take to make a city that thrives on movement, speed and activity come to a screeching halt. Well, 26.9 inches of snow will do the trick. Yesterday was the biggest blizzard in recorded history for NYC. It surpassed the blizzard of 1947 (just a bit of trivia for you). This may not seem like a lot of snow to some of you. In fact, I was equally disillusioned to the amount as 26 inches is a common occurrence in Utah. But, here in NY I don't think anyone knows how to handle that much snow. So, everyone just stayed inside. The cars that are usually speeding down the streets were curbed and completely buried. There was calm and quiet that resounded over the city as people were forced to take a day off and relax. I absolutely loved my day off and was completely lazy all day. I was very cuddly and snuggly in my cozy butter colored marshmallow robe. I accomplished nothing and I feel great.



What does today entail...



I have another day off of work and I'm going to finish cleaning the apartment, do some alterations for a friend and get waxed. Busy day, I know.



It's been a long time since my last blog and I suppose quite a bit has happened. I can't think now what I could have possibly done, but here's a few highlights.



- Rented a car last week, drove to Long Island, shopped at Ikea, went to a hockey game, reorganized the apartment, and did a shitload of laundry.



I think the next step is to buy a Volvo and have some kids so I can drive them to their soccer games.



I need to get away...travel, tour, something. Even if it's just for a weekend.