Lost in a place called America

I'm finally at a computer again where I can find solace and a sense of normalcy. So, my birthday came and went and I think I'm still going through the birthday blues. Tallahassee was a bust. My friends did all they could and they were amazing, but when a town has nothing to offer then what are you gonna do. I think we are all feeling the pressure of the long drives, one night stays, and tour coming to an end. I've become more reclusive throughout this process. I just sleep in my little snuggle posish with my fluffy pillow and down comforter. Then I read a bit or listen to my iPod. I'm reading a great little book right now...very nostalgic. It's so easy to feel so lonely when you are surrounded by so many people. I'm finding out who my friends are as well. I think I'm done picking up the phone for a while. I need to evaluate who really cares and who I can count on to be there. I guess in the long run it really doesn't matter. I'll be on to the next adventure and this will all seem like a dream. Adria and I have been spending quite a bit of time together. We're both reclusive and found we have more in common than we thought. Kindred spirits. We are both fed up with the drama and are content to discuss anything but work and the tour. So refreshing. We are in South Carolina tonight and I counted this as my pseud birthday because we were actually able to get to a nice restaurant and I was in very good company. I did have a bit of a breakdown earlier. I guess I'm not immune to feeling the pressure. Somedays I get a swift kick to the head and I realize I'm not Wonder Woman...I'm just aspiring. I really need some physical contact. Someone to rub my head and tell me everything is going to be okay. That's always worked in the past. Someday soon.