Resolutions , My Ass

I think this could possibly be the laziest day worldwide. I must include myself in this broad statement. I didn't get out of bed until 2:00pm and I stayed in my cozy p.j.'s until almost 5:00pm. Then it was a long fairy dust bath while listening to my iPod and slowly watching all the bubbles in my bath disappear.



I will make no resolutions this year because I have no idea what life holds for me. I want no expectations and less pressure in my life. This doesn't mean I don't still have goals. I will always be striving to reach my goals and fulfill my dreams. That doesn't change, but I don't want a timeline. I'm still young and have plenty of years left.



How quickly this year slipped through my fingers. Was I having fun? That's what they say happens to time when it moves too fast. Honestly from April until the end of the year is a complete blur. I don't really know what I did, if I accomplished anything or did one thing of significant value. I have to say from April on was Tyler's year. It was his time to shine. He found a dream job in sports and now his reason for living in New York is much more justified than mine. What a change for him though. His entire countenance has changed. He is happy for the first time since we've moved and maybe long before that. He has a potential career and it's something he looks forward to doing. I had a little taste of that for a while and I can't think of anything worse than having it, then having it taken away from you and not being able to get it back. But that's my career choice and I have a lifetime of that to look forward to. It's not that I'm masochistic, but I kind of like that life. Not really knowing what's next, putting myself out there to be disparaged or extolled. Maybe I’m able to do this because I’m more aware now about what defines my success. I have a better understanding of what’s important in life. Does this come from age and experience? I don’t know. What I do know is that I appreciate all of the examples in my life that have taught me how to recognize and sort my priorities.



Happy New Year, I'm sure it will be if that's what I choose to make of it.