With a sly little grin, she hit play

It's been two days now and I seem to be settling into my new age quite nicely. I don't feel all that different; however I am feeling more and more like an adult with every new birthday. I truly never thought that would happen. This was very apparent to me when I decided to go to the mall on my birthday. Maybe not the best idea since it was also a holiday and in Queens there really isn't anything else to do in February but go to the mall. So, Tyler and I trudged our way over along with every middle school student in the area and attempted to shop. It was a brave attempt but I was getting more and more steamed with every shirt a bra pulled right out of my hands. I was ready to punch someone in the face. Tyler was right there with me, his imaginary red alert light flashing uncontrollably, led him to check this lady in Victoria's Secret and almost knock her down. That fat bitch deserved it. She slammed my leg when she tried to open a drawer, stole my bra and stole my sales girl. See you next Tuesday.



The mall was a bust, but the day before was really when we celebrated my birthday. We went to a Broadway show, Avenue Q, which confirmed once again for me that I have to play Kate Monster. HAVE TO! I will find a way. After the show we ate at my favorite little diner, The Cup, and our fabulous chick server with the mohawk was amazing. So, we'll just count that as my birthday.



One more year until twenty ten. I'm so ready.

I do my crosswords in pen

As I stepped out of the subway today I wasn't sure what to feel. I was running late and felt slightly unprepared for my first coaching session with a new voice teacher. However, when I finally reached his apartment on West End Ave I was greeted by his sweet dog, Jen, and immediately put at ease. We went right to work, picked out a couple of new audition songs and worked on the perfect cuts to show off my range and ability. He also had a couple of ideas for me to get involved in some upcoming shows. I will fill in with details when they are confirmed. By my next lesson I will have 30 new songs to choose from and add to my repertoire.



After I left my lesson I felt something that I hadn't felt for quite some time...confidence. When you have it you walk a little taller. You are focused and have purpose in everything you do. There isn't anything or anyone that can get you down. With my new found confidence comes freedom from doubt, a feeling of trust, belief in myself and my abilities and hopefulness that events to come will only reflect that confidence. I will fear no longer that which I cannot control.



"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face" Eleanor Roosevelt.

Deux Ex Machina

What does it take to make a city that thrives on movement, speed and activity come to a screeching halt. Well, 26.9 inches of snow will do the trick. Yesterday was the biggest blizzard in recorded history for NYC. It surpassed the blizzard of 1947 (just a bit of trivia for you). This may not seem like a lot of snow to some of you. In fact, I was equally disillusioned to the amount as 26 inches is a common occurrence in Utah. But, here in NY I don't think anyone knows how to handle that much snow. So, everyone just stayed inside. The cars that are usually speeding down the streets were curbed and completely buried. There was calm and quiet that resounded over the city as people were forced to take a day off and relax. I absolutely loved my day off and was completely lazy all day. I was very cuddly and snuggly in my cozy butter colored marshmallow robe. I accomplished nothing and I feel great.



What does today entail...



I have another day off of work and I'm going to finish cleaning the apartment, do some alterations for a friend and get waxed. Busy day, I know.



It's been a long time since my last blog and I suppose quite a bit has happened. I can't think now what I could have possibly done, but here's a few highlights.



- Rented a car last week, drove to Long Island, shopped at Ikea, went to a hockey game, reorganized the apartment, and did a shitload of laundry.



I think the next step is to buy a Volvo and have some kids so I can drive them to their soccer games.



I need to get away...travel, tour, something. Even if it's just for a weekend.

I did not see my shadow this morning

I had the day off today. Sheryl Crow is playing at Hard Rock tonight and only half the restraunt was open. Instead, I slept in, had breakfast (which was actually left over spaghetti) and went to get my hair done. It pretty much took all day. While I was at the salon I did a little reading in Elle and my horoscope told me that I should take a little weekend trip to clear my head and refresh the spirit. What a coincidence. Tomorrow, I'm leaving on a little road trip to Boston with my friend Kim. She needed someone to go with her because her husband couldn't get off work. So, it's a little desperate housewive's weekend away. I'm really excited to get out of the city though and I think the stars are correct. I'll come back clear and refreshed.

I've started auditioning again and that's become my full time job. I have a bunch lined up and the StrawHat auditions coming up in March (that's a multiple audition for a bunch of summer stock theatres). Hopefully I can cut down my hours at Hard Rock very soon...like next week. Or find something completely different, maybe something in fashion.

This is just rambling so I'm going to end it here.

I'll give the Boston update when I get back.