Whoa, they changed the blog form...okay...I can handle it.
I'm in my head a lot lately. I have all these thoughts and images and ideas and they are all just racing about until I feel my head might explode if I don't give them an outlet. My creativity has been caged, so tomorrow it is my goal to free my mind in any way I can. I have an idea for a painting that I'm going to start provided I can find a model. It's very Frida Kahlo and might freak people out but it's an image I've had in my head for a couple days now. It's haunting me. I don't know why I haven't been able to pick up a paintbrush lately. Sometimes I feel like I'm afraid to share what's in my head so I keep it locked up. But today I was thinking maybe if I let people know what's in my head they might understand me better. That, or think I'm crazy. I'm fine either way. I think I'm worried that the people I care about the most won't appreciate the images I create. Or, they'll trivialize them and make me feel like less of a person. It's happened before. One day I'll escape from this cage and finally be able to be myself all the time. I'm so glad I pulled out my portfolio. It gave me some inspiration. I had forgotton about some of my pieces. I posted a couple so when I go online it will remind me to create more.
Now for the mundane and everyday news...
They finally started giving me better sections at Hard Rock so I can make some money. Today I was only there for four hours and made as much as I do in two days. Yea. It was my friend Jacquie's last day so we doused her in chocolate sauce and whipped cream as a going away present. She was not amused but was a good sport. I let her borrow my hoodie so she didn't have to go out in public looking like she had just left an underground mud wrestling tournament. Hmmm...random super hot thought...and it's gone.
I plan on de-junking my apt. tomorrow. I have way too much clutter and it's driving me nuts. It's going out on the sidewalk for the scavengers. It'll be gone in a day.
My painting is back in my head...if I don't start it tomorrow I think I'll go insane. In fact I'm going to start the sketches for it right now.
Buh bye,
Rochelle
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